| Holy cow. |
[ October 3rd, 2008 � 3:37pm ] |
I haven't posted here for awhile. hah. Anyways, things are shitty as usual with money, and hopefully they'll get better soon. Watched the VP debate last night at starbucks with the gang. Oh Sarah Palin. drive me nuts.
I feel lost. don't ask.
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[ July 6th, 2008 � 6:47pm ] |
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the boy gave me cookies for my birthday.
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[ July 3rd, 2008 � 9:53pm ] |
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so I've been extremely busy with things. I moved away to the far away land of Orlando to escape Tampa . Don't get me wrong, fun city, just been there too long and there are way too many people to my disliking there. Only a handful though. There's this boy. He works at a starbucks. Coy smile. Can't look me in the eye. I hear he takes a liking to me, only deal is... He has a boyfriend and is moving. What the fuck? Wheres my luck? I'm about to become a homewrecker due to the fact that I want to jump his bones sooooo bad.
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| Holy shit. |
[ June 11th, 2008 � 1:44pm ] |
Well, I'm never ever taking a hit of Jamaican red weed ever again.
I literally laid on a couch for 30 minutes and thought I heard voices.
I hallucinated in the restroom.
How I drove home? NO CLUE.
Good God, I'm pretty sure I have the strangest family ever.
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[ June 2nd, 2008 � 4:05am ] |
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Where have all the best friends gone?
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| Guess who's life officially sucks, |
[ May 28th, 2008 � 7:53am ] |
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I'm just in spring hill right now, and since my major accident of September, I've driven to Atlanta twice, Brandon twice, Orlando more times than i can say, and Palatka. I drive to Spring Hill, and this car finally gives out on me, the perfect timing of when I don't tell my grandfather where I am at, so ofcourse now I have to call him at sometime and break the pleasent news that I'm about 30 something or another miles away from home. It could be worse, I could have been in all those father places that I mentioned. hmmph? maybe its not too bad, but still, what the fuck Heinz, you were a beast, and you quit now. I need to learn more about cars, its rediculous. The inner-gay in me just doesn't give a hoot.
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[ May 25th, 2008 � 10:53pm ] |
I can't wait to get out of this fucking town because everyone here is shit.
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[ May 20th, 2008 � 3:41pm ] |
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What I'm currently fucking addicted to at the Moment. I drink a jug of this a day. ITS INSANE.
In other news, I hate going through old old Livejournals of friends. If you haven't done that in awhile, don't. It will just ignite memories of better days when everything was carefree, drugs werent a source of everyday please. gay.
I'm also moving to Orlando in the fall, gettng away from home for awhile, and making it on my own. I need that desperately. I've never told anyone this but, Never in 3 years of having a car have I payed for insurance, and the same deal with phones, and that shit really needs to quit, hah. I'm also saving up money to go to London. It'll all start in a jar. I need roughly something over 2,000.
Things are changing.
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| It Happend. |
[ May 6th, 2008 � 7:27pm ] |
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That was amazing yet so bad in the morning. Jesus. Cant really say what its all about, but it was fun, tingly, and crazy! Anyways, I slept all day and I need to clean. Chyeah.
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| I'm so tired of this place. |
[ April 22nd, 2008 � 9:05pm ] |
My eyes are red. No one cares.
If you asked me about 2 month ago, If I felt alright in tampa, I'd say yeah. I had a job, I was going to school, i had great friends. All of that dissaperead. No one here cares for me, not even my family, its sick. I've lived here all my life, and was complacent up until 2 days ago, because thats when I lost my friends, or what I thought was friends. I seriously want to vomit at the thought that a group of people cared for me, but it never happens. I always find out in the end that its never that way, that they really wanted me out in the first place. Id make fun of little people, just to find out i was even smaller then them. I just feel like shit and never in my life have i wanted therapy, but im so alone man. To talk to a shrink would be more comforting than to talk to a friend. whatever
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| My Life is... |
[ April 21st, 2008 � 2:00am ] |
Period.
I seriously want a release. I want to stand on a rooftop, and scream like a wild man. Im just getting shit shoved in my face 24/7. Im not in the know never anymore. I felt I had control, but I never did, I was just lied to. Felt bad for. Fuck it all man. Fuck this shit and fuck everyone I know, because driving around in my thoughts are more comforting than the voice of a so called ami.
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| Truckers |
[ April 20th, 2008 � 6:51pm ] |
I decided I really hate people who drive trucks.
They are asshole drivers and always think they are big and bad because they drive trucks.
No one cares really. blah.
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[ January 29th, 2008 � 11:01pm ] |
I dont get why i suck.
I dont get why i get shit on.
I dont get why im not good enough.
I dont get any of you.
If you seriously dont want to hang out with me, dont fucking tell me you do. Its annoying. If you dont like me, fucking tell me, and dont waste my time. im tired of just being ROBERT who accepts any shit thats thrown at me and people walking all over me and doing the most rude shit to me and me just turning around saying "Oh thats all right, I know you did wrong, but hey ill still be your friend so you can reek my benefits."
fuck it, im too good for this, and thats all I get.
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[ January 20th, 2008 � 3:17am ] |
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Yesterday I woke up, skipped work. Sat around, masturbated. Took a shower. Drove my grandpas car around with no one to hang out with. Ate at Subway. Drove to a friends house, parked outside, cried for 10 minutes. Drove to the theatre to see a film by myself. Had a good Friend show up there out of the blue and saw Cloverfield once again.
I think in 2 days I'll be declared legaly insane.
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[ January 19th, 2008 � 1:17pm ] |
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Was bloody amazin.
Last night me Jade and the gang head to G-bar to see Dani from A Shot of Love with Tila Tequila. Wouldve taken a photo with her, but uh, It was kind of crowded.. more than usual, and I was to hot, BUT THEY FUCKIN PLAYED M.I.A!!, So i love Gbar now.
I've never shook my ass so much, I must've looked like a freak.
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[ January 12th, 2008 � 3:06pm ] |
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being sick sucks majour big time. Happy New year by the way.
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[ October 20th, 2007 � 12:46pm ] |
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It is really cold in my room right now. My nipples are like dimes at the moment.
In other news, today and tomorrow are my days off, so expect a lot of food consumption, dancing in my room, singing in the shower, smoking, smoking, smoking, and most of all, which takes up 85% of the day...
SLEEPING!
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| Goodbye Heinz. r.i.p. |
[ September 9th, 2007 � 7:23pm ] |
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Bright Eyes ; at the bottom of everything |
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So, I really wanted the other night to be a regular night. Me and Jakob were just going to McDonalds after playing some Guitar Hero. If you guys know the Waters and Hanley intersection, its basically the most dangerous intersection in all of Tampa because people don't fucking pay attention. Where coming back from Hillsborough, and about to go through the light (Which is green), and I remember thinking "Hmm, I wonder why that guy has no lights on and his hazards are on." That thought was cut short by me going "Oh my God" and Jakob yelling "What the hell is he doing" and us crashing with an airbag exploding in my face.
So yeah, after some daze and confusion I get out of my car, and ofcourse the driver is one of those ghetto latin kids with that long hair in some headband contraption in the low down to the ground cars. He comes out screaming at me in spanish me telling me that my light is red.. and as I look up, the light is STILL green and i scream at him is spanish "My light is green man?" as it turns yellow. He shuts up as the police come by and a total change of character asking me in his perfect english "Are you alright?" "Yes.." i say, with an asshole look on my face, and ofcourse the only witness to the crime, is his friend! HOW CONVINENT, HMPH? YOU THINK THE WITNESS WILL DEFEND ME? OFCOURSE HE WONT. He told the officer i ran the red light, which is really amazing, considering that if my light was red, he would have hit me as well, and also that the guy that hit me only spoke Spanish? Now, lets see... he spoke perfect english to his parents, and asked me if i was okay... in english... someone please explain the justice in this situation before I explode.
You think that A light i drive through everyday, I would notice if it was red, and anyone who drives with me, even knows i wont run a fucking yellow. So yeah, im taking it to court, because its rediculous, and the police officers were so incompident. They didnt take statements from any drivers, and did not check for one DUI, nor did they send an ambulence. REDICULOUS, anyways, heres some photos.
p.s. don't listen to bright eyes' "At the bottom of everything" when you drive. It won't turn out well.
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| Job down... |
[ September 6th, 2007 � 2:40am ] |
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There you are in me ; Nelie McKay |
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Many more obstacles to go.
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[ August 18th, 2007 � 4:13pm ] |
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There is nothing to do. Hmph. It's too late to look for a job. [I seriously believe I just lay in bed till 3pm so that I don't have to get my lazy ass up and look for one.] People are working and i'm not. I think I should be greatful for that? eh. I need a job.
I CLEANED MY ROOM.
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[ August 12th, 2007 � 1:49pm ] |
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I guess no matter how many times we try, it just aint goin' anywhere.
Oh well, the search goes on.
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| ugh. |
[ August 8th, 2007 � 7:54pm ] |
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I'm loosing it, I really am.
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| BEfuckinWARE! rants ahead. |
[ August 6th, 2007 � 10:32pm ] |
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I really wish I could get a grip right now. I don't understand how so much can go so wrong in so little time. You know I hate rant posts, but I just feel really fucking rediculous at the moment people. I feel trapped right now, not wanting to be here at all. I feel callow and everyone around me is the same.
I want to be in Orlando, it seems right. Something is there right now that I need so bad. I'm just so broke and my car is a bonified twat of tin. How unfair?
I don't know what I want to do in my life. Aveda? Music? Theatre. I'm torn. extremely. How the hell am I getting into school with no money? Everyday asking for money just leads to yelling, and i have to grin-&-bare it, and I hate it, but its wrong, but it need it. I need 5 bucks for gas, which gets me nowhere, then I need another 5 for cigarettes, which I lie is for food/gas. I dont even eat food anymore, and yet im still a pudge monster. laugh if you will, I'll feel better.
Things need to change maaan, and I'm the only one who can do that sadly, tragically, and logically.
le sigh.
In other news, I've begun reading Party Monster, which i bought today (not with my own money). Time to cross that off the list;
Dear Diary
Party Monster
The Heart is deceitful above all things
Everything Is Illuminated
The perks of being a wallflower
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| Hmph. anal. |
[ August 5th, 2007 � 4:22pm ] |
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what you are watching. |
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Nice to know my life has been re-wound back to freshman year in High School. I don't expect any responses to this since the people who usually comment my journal now hate my guts.
In other news, I found this hilarious.
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